tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4784780739894996534.post3921782777089558972..comments2013-03-01T13:43:51.167-08:00Comments on The Next Chapter: Random Thoughts For A Rainy DayEllahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05439384834890152083noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4784780739894996534.post-35921931571646515612011-11-03T22:07:26.521-07:002011-11-03T22:07:26.521-07:00Wooooow.. ANONYMOUS is a fucking doucher.
Anyway!...Wooooow.. ANONYMOUS is a fucking doucher.<br /><br />Anyway!! Christmas is always bittersweet. But I already have your present bought!! Kinda.. And I have my pink tree we had in CR all packed up. I just have to bring it up here from Moms. Do you think Adam will go for it? HAHA!!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15994772079642448339noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4784780739894996534.post-31380093832930158402011-11-02T23:00:51.447-07:002011-11-02T23:00:51.447-07:00I have discovered what love is. The first day I ev...I have discovered what love is. The first day I ever met you, I dream of that night every night since I have met her. The pure joy of love swept over my body as if by a warm blanket. The look in her eye as I began to open the door my this moment in reality covered my thoughts as I embraced this angel. It is as if my whole life I had waited for you. Why cant our love go back to what it was when you I was yours and you were mine and that’s all there was. <br /> My dreams I used to look forward to every night have turned into a nightmare and I can not stand to sleep, my mind racing with thoughts of our love at its purest, the simple ways to say I love you, what happen to the times when we were captivated by each other, tiny looks subtle gestures to show our love, I want us back, not the us of today, the one of yesterday I want the us that when my eyes open in the morning I don’t ever want to blink for holding on to each second of life with you it to precious to lose a fraction of time. I get lost in my webs of memories of you trying to find just the right one to fall asleep to. <br /> My brain is telling me to walk away from you but heart tells me if I do I will never find the love of my life, I cant stand to live with out you to be in presence of you and seeing you smile every time I look at you, what fools are we to let this love between us fade into the darkness. Are we so blinded by the pain that we forget of what we had? Do I not fill your heart and soul with a blissful love? <br /> As the memories start to fade I begin to fall ill, losing sight of love and there is not pill I can take to ease the pain, its so sick that it turned into this sort of game. Hanging on by my finger tips I can not grasp the concept of this juncture, as the walls begin to shake and the building begins to fall. Our love is just like this structure we spend countless hours of every waking day emerging in each others grace. To watch this tower of love fall the onset of depression consumes every part of my being. <br /> Despair covers my world, the clinch of death screams out loud knowing victory will soon be his. He fills my head with the evil laughter of success with growing fears of eternal confusion. Searching desperately for any site of you, wondering aimlessly with no sense of direction, my heart cant seem to lead itself back to you, blurred by sadness, drowning in tears, I have searched years for you only to be shunned away. <br /> Where do I go from here, is what I ask myself knowing the answers frightens me more than I am willing to endure. So as I lay my weary heart to rest tonight I fear my nightmares the endless hold they have on my thoughts. So I will continue to walk these shadowy gallows with fate trailing far behind, though this fear hunts me I fade into a state of oblivion, never to find love again. <br /><br />(Just random thoughts, not intended to persuade one way or another, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uXvFylQEL_0Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com